Thursday night

Tonight is AHA night downtown, and I'm taking Shannon and Julie. Tonight is Shannons first AHA night. I'm excited to go! Today is PAY CHA CHING DAY!!!! so we'll eat at one of the little places down town. There is some food place on the corner and it always smells like beef on the grill, so you bet that's where I am heading. I can't wait to go to the art gallery, and then to my little Cafe Arpeggio for open mic night. And coffee. With Shannon. Yesssss.

He didn't try on his Holiday Party outfit yesterday like he said he would. So help us Lord, if that thing needs to be ironed or sewn or a new one needs to be bought. I'll slay him alive! Tonight starts Fun Weekend... AHA! tonight. Holiday party tomorrow, then an adult party Sat night at Kathi's house. Shannon has a far away show that night, so I'll be with the kids after Kathi's party.

That Dell laptop he got? Free and clear, it's his. It is part of a promotion Comcast was doing that we didn't know about. Sign up for Comcast for 2 years and the notebook is yours. Sooo.... it came. Nice, huh?

We bought the washer and dryer thast's down in the basement. The broad upstairs moved out, she sold washer and dryer to landlord and we want it. $325.00. Maytag. I'm concerned because... it's Christmas and he just spent $325 bucks, you know?

My Holiday Work party

ok so Friday night is the annual holiday party at work. Obviously, since I am new, I've never been. It's a free party. Free food, free open bar, music, and I get to go and show off my fabulous boyfriend! I can't WAIT!! Heehee!
I have a sexy red dress to wear, with my black and red MaryJane heels, gonna buy those sexy nylons with the seam down the back of the leg. And I have no idea what Shannon is going to wear, and frankly, this makes me nervous. He isn't a bum, but I am scared that with his um weight gain, his pants will be too snug, thereforw causing him with Nothing To Wear syndrome. I don't care what he wears, as long as he looks as good as me, and he tried to butter me up by saying he can never look THAT good. Pfft; brown noser.
So I was looking online for pictures of Christian Bale to give an example of what I'd like Shannon to wear... and now I'm moist.

for Sara

Since Sara checked here 400 times yesterday for an update, I'm going to bang this one out today.


We never did the gingerbread house and train. My mom has the cake decorating tips and I like when the kids get fancy.

I started to put up Christmas stuff, then I got totally disgusted and overwhelmed and put the brakes on that project. Nobody seemed to want to help. So WHATEVER. I put all the stuff aside and will get to it when I get to it. I'm also, for the first time in my LIFE, sending Twitmas cards out to ONLY people who send them to me. so... I sent 2 out today. I usually spend almost 100 bucks on stamps and send out ooh 80 cards, but not this year. I don't have the desire to do it. I work too long. We leave the house at 6:30am and get home at 5pm. What? lol

Somehow I lost 2 pounds, that's something good. I told Shannon, and he said "Are you sure?" YES I AM SURE! LOL



We got home from work last night, and there's a package from Comcast at the door for Shannon. He tells me he didn't order anything. He opens it and there's a darn Dell laptop inside. He got all excited and he says "OMG, I won! I didn't even know I won!" and I asked him when he entered a drawing. He says "I didn't"

So after work, we're going to Comcast to see what the deal is with the Dell...



This morning; snow. Oh my God, the snow. Wet like rain, but white and thick. We left the house at 6:30. Shannon got to work at 7:04. I got to work at 8:05. Unheard of. I was stuck behind a Grand Marquis with Florida plates, doing 20mph in the high speed passing lane with his hazard lights on. That was pretty funny.

Then I was stuck behind a Honda CRV that was either drunk or those cars suck in the snow because; ALL OVER THE ROAD. Enough to make me scared. And going over the Bourne Bridge, I was praying to not be the one who lost control of her vehicle. I did good...

Silent Sunday

It's kinda quiet here.
I over spent at the grocery store last night and today it is being mulled over.
I wanted to decorate for Christmas this weekend, but I give up because nobody is helping me. I get these ideas in my head that Christmas music should play, we can dance around the tree and help and talk and laugh with steaming cups of hot chololate and coffee, but in reality Shannon was working on stuff elsewhere, Julie was on the computer, I was at the tree, and David was in the next step already. He gets into the Christmas tote 1, and asks whats this whats this like Jack the Pumpkin King and when I  start into that tote, he jumps to the next tote. Every year, same shit. My house is a damn mess when the kids are here, everything gets everywhere and with Christmas shit going up and everything else needing to move to allow Christmas shit to go up, it's just too much clutter for me. So I put everything back into the totes and VOILA it's halfway better. My christmas ornaments suck, I want new ones. I have one special ornament on my tree. It's a clear glass ornament full of milkweed. When I was young, my dad worked in an autobody shop near some wild grassy area and in that area was milkweed. I liked pulling it apart to get the fluffy sticky seeds. I saw that ornament in 1991 and bought it. Last year david broke it by accident, so I saved the milkweed, bought a new clear ornament and filled it. Voila ~ my ornament lives.
What we ARE going to do today is make the gingerbread house and train. I'll show you, when we're done.

Lots to say today; Julie

I'll begin by saying my daughter wore a dress. She is going to a semi-formal at school. She tried on the dress I chose to wear at my holiday work party and she looked really nice. Since our events are on the same night, she agreed to go dress shopping with me, much to my tickled pink delight. Her friend Jill asked if she could come. Her mom is sick from chimotherapy, so of course I said yes. We went to the mall, each girl tried on 5 dresses. Although the busts looked fantastic on Julie, the dresses just weren't her style, and as much as I wished she was delighted like Jillian, she wasn't. My daughter is so beautiful. We went to a few stores, but there was nothing... and she asked if she could wear pants and a tie... and an idea hit me...
We went to Hot Topic and she found the Mad Hatters top hat and VOILA her outfit was born.

She is going to wear my rock star pants, a brown top with my black velvet jacket and the top hat. She was tickled pink in my outfit and that's what matters. When we were driving home, I was thinking about how she doesn't like dresses or sexy shoes, how she never seems to like any boy, and I am a little sad that she is going to go to this dance and not wear a dress. I always dreamed she would walk into a room and the girls would wanna be her and the boys would wanna be with her, you know? Maybe they do. My kid is that special, yeah. Her eyelashes look like butterflies, her face is so gentle, her laugh is amazing. I love my Julie. I always thought some day she'd meet a great guy, have a happy life and I'm scared that she is going to waste it on some GIRL and I feel so shallow for saying that because there's nothing at all wrong with being gay. If she is gay, then hopefully she will find a great girl and have a happy life. It's possible. In my experience, with the gay and lesbians I know personally, the relationships are always short and full of turmoil. Hmm... it's that way with straight people too.

I need to ponder things.

Religion

This post could go on and on and on.
My daughter has been going to a Methodist Church, and I am afraid that she will become a Bible thumper and look at me with a hairy eyeball.
I'll just leave it at that.

NaBloPoMo 30

So I woke up in a sad mood because I didn't have sex last night. I was also anticipating getting my damn paycheck at work today. My check did arrive thank the Maker...
and I take my lunch and go to Bank of America. I don't like Bank of America because they charge me, a non member, 6 dollars because I cash my paycheck from them. My check is drawn on Bank of America. That's rape. Bank of Amrica also seriously dicked my friends on buying a home... losing paperwork and stuff. So on my way TO the bank, I wanna avoid the damn rotary, so I cut through the staples parking lot, then realize they have a little island set up to force people to go into the rotary. Grr. So I loop a 360 in the rotary and go into the bank. And this old cunt is in the door with her plastic teeth and she asks me how I'm doing today. So as I blow past her, I tell her I am agitated. So her eyes get big and she says "Hopefully not with us!" and I plop my check down and roll my finger onto the fingerprint thing because, well you know, I am a criminal and all that. So I told her no, I hate the rotary. Then the teller tells me that I have to pay a 6 dollar fine yeah yeah and then I say to Ms Plastic Teeth "As a matter of fact, I am annoyed that I have to pay a 6 dollar charge because I am not a member of this bank" and this light bulb pops above her head and she smiles, thinking she is being witty.. she responds by telling me if I open an account with them, I won't have to pay a fee. So I laugh and say "I'm going to do direct deposit with my own bank. not only will I not pay a 6 dollar fee, but I won't see that rotary again!" and she ponders and asks me what bank I have and I tell her St. Anne's Credit Union of Fall River. and she walked off. THAT'S RIGHT!
I left the bank, almost got lost trying to be a shortcutter. I spun around and went back from whence I came, stopping in KFC (shh don't tell Mr Chase) and I get back to work.
Today at work, I spent the day making calls that I have been avoiding, because the general public just doesn't understand the way things work. Like getting a referral and why you need one. I call this one man and as I am leaving him a message... that went like this; Hi Mister Big Shot, this is Stacey calling from OCB and I just wanted to let you know Ive been trying to get a referral from your PCP for your July 31st visit with Doctor Eyeball. Since your visit was over 90 days ago, I need you to call BCBS and get a 1 time exception so they'll cover the bill" and he picks up the phone and I repeat myself. He gets huffy and says he has a referral, and I told him that his PCP does not have one on file for that dos, and neither does the BCBS website. (Meaning you don't have one, dude) He says it's not his problem, he isn't paying this bill, and I sense he's getting amped, so I lightly say "ok, thank you", and he goes "Whoa whoa whoa, where you goin?" and he chuckles and accuses me of being angry.
Angry is missing Black Friday because someone goofed up at work and you miss getting paid for the long weekend. Angry is going to Foxwoods and NOT having your paycheck to back up wanting to gamble. Me calling to tell you you need an exception is not me being angry. It's me assisting you in not getting a BILL. I assured him I wasn't angry and he told me he could hear in my voice that I was personalizing this and that he doesn't appreciate me calling him to shuck my responsibility onto him. err, ok? To make a long tale short, he starts saying he doesn't know "Whats wrong with you wimen" and I see thsi is going nowhere, he could be a mysogynist so I just hung up on him.
And I guess that made him angry because he called back and threatened to call his lawyers on us.
So I emailed my boss and explained to him what happened, and I suppose I'll get into trouble for hanging up on the guy. I think it was smarter to hang up on him than to get into a pissing match with him.
So I take my pay home, grab my kids, take them for sneakers. David grabs Champion sneakers, 25 bucks. I grab the 14 dollar ones and ask him 50 times if he is sure he doesn't want these. He INSISTS on Champions. They're ugly, to boot. So he gets them. Whatever. We go to Target. I grab Julie some stuff, grab David some jammies and a gingerbread train kit, and he asks for a damn stupid 6 dollar Lego toy and I said no, because I just spent 25 bucks on sneakers. Then I said if he had gotten the black ones, he could have gotten the Lego toy. So he flips out, crying... and NO I did not give in. i NEVER give in once I say no to something. Muahahaha. I HATE when parents fight with their kids over getting toys. No is no is no. I hate when a mom or dad says no and the kid FLIPS and the parent gives in. I want to kick parents that do that, so don't let me catch you doing it. (Melissa.) lol

Sunday

OOh I feel so sarcastic right now.
I'm home alone, cleaning up the kitchen. Shannon took the broom downstairs, and I believe he took my dustpan and little broom down there, too. OF COURSE, because the floor up here needs sweepin really bad. Like I said, I'm home alone. Shannon is at band practice. I'm cleaning AND looking around on Facebook. And this is where my sarcasm comes dripping in. One of my friends has her tree up for Twitmas, and all gifts are under it. She states that those gifts are IT for Twitmas, so I commented and said I guess her kid knows about Santa. So she says her kid believes in Santa.
Well how the fuck do you explain why there's presents under the tree when Santa isn't due for another 26 days?
Jeesh.
I bought 7 and a half pounds of bananas for Shannon for the week. I bought my Twitmas party dress for my companys party. Thank God it is a medium, but this week we'll be watching our intake. Groceries today was... white meats, veges and fruit. that's it. Water and oatmeal, too. IT SUCKS.
*sigh*
OK, I'm off to freakin... clean.

NaBloPoMo 29

1. I was born in 1973
2. I am the adult child of an alcoholic
3. I am an only child
4. I played in the snow after the blizzard of '78
5. I had my appendix out when I was 7
6. I have a period in my life that I refer to as the missing years
7. I started my menstrual period when I was 9
8. I went to Disney in the early 80's
9. I was so wild when I was 16 I'm surprised I am not dead
10. (I used to flash my boobs at the beach.)
11. In high school, I was bullied severely for 2 years
12. I saw the bully when I was 22 and challenged her to fight; she wanted no part of it
13. My first car was a 1980 Ford Mustang
14. I learned how to drive on a stick shift in a car that had a flame job
15. I failed the first time I went for my license
16. I like driving fast
17. I was a virgin when I graduated high school
18. I love Shannon Chase and hope to spend the rest of my life with him
19. I am a post op gastric bypass patient
20. I love living in Fairhaven
21. My mother told me I would never make it on my own when I had my first place
22. I made it on my own for 3 years before I moved in with Richie :cP "
23. I had my uterus cortorized so I won't have my period ever again
24. The first thing I do in the shower is wash my left arm
25. I do not like talking on the phone
26. I flirt like the devil
27. I am considering braces to fix a space between my teeth on the side of my mouth
28. I get sidetracked easy, especially when Im doing housework
29. I am always cold
30. I was a Girl Scout Leader
31. I once got poison ivy so bad my eyes couldn't open
32. I used to see therapists but learned how to fix my life on my own; attitude
33. If I ever got rich, I would build a Victorian house and live in it
34. I have seen the musical CATS
35. I worked at Chuck E Cheese for a year when I was 25
36. I love to burn candles
37. I used to sell Party Lite Candles
38. I used to sell Midnight Madness sex toys
39. I took mescaline twice in high school
40. I lost a cousin because he overdosed on heroin
41. I wish I could embrace him today
42. I like seeing rainbows in the sky
43. I like comedies and dramas
44. I can't drink milk
45. I love rain, thunder, and lightening
46. I prefer Coke over Pepsi
47. I loved Anna Nicole Smith
48. I love Nicholas Cage
49. I was a Party of Five addict
50. I met Matthew Fox
51. I LOVE going to dance clubs
52. I love platform shoes
53. Halloween is my favorite holiday
54. I like Valentines Day better than Christmas
55. I don't agree with the Catholic religion
56. I have been to Wicca rituals
57. I have been to Unitarian Mass
58. I have also been in a Synogogue
59. I currently follow no religion but wish I did
60. I enjoy moving, as in address change
61. I like Dunkin Donuts coffee light with 5 Splenda
62. I like pretty postage stamps
63. I like putting confetti in cards I send
64. I hate tying my shoes
65. I avoid getting shots
66. I am in constant conflict with myself
67. I am genuine
68. I think I am beautiful
69. If you don't know what this number looks like, I'd be glad to show you
70. I am very giving
71. I am honest
72. I am very punctual
73. I am reliable
74. I hate negative confrontation
75. I have a nice ass
76. I prefer cats over dogs
77. I love shopping at Wal Mart
78. I have 3 tattoos
79. My ears and tongue are pierced
80. I am stubborn
81. I like to drink Jagermeister
82. I never use salt when I cook, but always have it on the glass my Margarita is in
83. I like Prime Rib medium rare
84. I've been friends with Jen since 1986
85. My first best friend (friends for 15 years) doesn't talk to me anymore
86. I don't have custody of my kids
87. I was 4 months pregnant with our second child when I got married
88. I am happily divorced
89. I had natural childbirth for both my kids
90. I have flown in a big airplane, a 8 seater airplane, and a helicopter
91. I will never go on a vacation cruise (Titanic reasons)
92. I won't swim in anything other than a pool (whats lurking in the water?)
93. When in a pool, I keep my eye out for sharks
94. I love to travel by car
95. I know how to read a map
96. I am scared shitless of bridges because I am afraid they are going to fall while I am driving on it
97. I am afraid of the noise the suspension wires will make when they give
98. I drive over the Bourne Bridge 10x a week
99. I have a secret that I am ashamed of. Sorta
100. I think you know enough about me.

Thankful

In 2003, I made a list on what I was thankful for. Here is that list

What I am Thankful For

I am thankful that I was born in America to American parents.
I am thankful that I am a white woman.
I am thankful that my children have no birth defects.
I am thankful that I am not an alcoholic nor am I dependant on drugs.
I am thankful that I live in a house in a good community
I am thankful that I eat every day
I am thankful that I have a job that I enjoy
I am thankful that my father is getting unsolicited help
I am thankful that I can walk, see, hear and speak
I am thankful that I have the internet


Funny how this year's list is almost identical.